Trying to think of words to describe the feeling when your first person in the crusade prayer line is a young mother holding a 5 year old boy who suffers from brain damage, seizures, deafness and cannot walk.
The second person is a man with anal cancer who states that God spoke to him to decline treatment (which I’m sure is a much different situation than in the US). So if God doesn’t heal him, he dies.
One of the things I’ve learned from this experience is that it’s not my responsibility to heal them…I can’t take the blame if they don’t receive a manifestation of healing any more than I can take the glory if they do. My only responsibility is to love them.
You may say ” I know that”… but you don’t really find out if it’s gone from theory to reality until you have a night like tonight.
The truth is, while the boy didn’t appear to leave different than when he came, he really did leave different. The man with cancer did, too. The presence of God was there, and you can’t experience the Presence and not be changed. They experienced the love of God tonight, and you can’t experience the love of God and not be different than when you came. The cancer patient was touched and flooded with peace and hope, sobbing under the influence of heaven. . You can’t pray in agreement to a loving Father without Him responding. He always responds – we just don’t always see it with our natural eyes.
My third person was a man afflicted in both eyes with a cataract and glaucoma, and arthritic pain in both knees and a swollen ankle. He left with clear vision and no pain in the knees, but no change in the ankle.
A wise man of God rightly stated the healing ministry is a mystery and you must be able to have a box called “mystery” to drop things in that you don’t have an answer for – and the discipline to leave them there.